Have you ever driven, or walked down the road and when you arrived wondered how you got there? The reason you don’t remember the journey is your mind was ‘elsewhere’. This is not uncommon as many of us do this, but it can be worrying, especially if you were driving. I would describe these occurrences as; you being non consciously aware, or being on automatic pilot. But this begs the question… if you weren’t there consciously, who did the driving? Who was doing the actions?
There medical term that could be used to describe this state, and that is; somnambulism (sleep walking). Your eyes are open but you are asleep. You are having all these experiences but you are not engaged in the decision making process. This state of non conscious awareness (autopilot) is generally how most people go through life.
Your inner being is your true self, your true nature. It does not focus on all the details of you (it is aware of it) yet sees the whole and knows it is part of this intelligent consciousness that has created this reality, the world we live in. It knows that you exist in your body, and is connected to everything, except, you have forgotten. When you are on autopilot you have even forgotten what you are meant to be doing at that moment in time. Your inner being takes over, it doesn’t require your social self’s engagement, you have not completed the tasks you came to do at this time, and it is not your time to leave your body. It is this being who truly is you, and when you are aware of this being, life generally begins to improve.
Imagine being consciously aware of who you really are, and that you have a connectedness to all that exists. This interconnectedness has more to do with your inner being (authentic nature) than your physicality. Making time to connect with this aspect of you is more important than you realise. It is here that you will find another aspect to this idea of who you are. You will be able to distinguish between what you have acquired and believe to be you and what you know to be true of you.
For those who do not believe, that is perfectly okay, because we all have two defining moments in our lives, birth and death. At birth you forget, on (leaving the body) death, you remember. It becomes an irrelevance to have the discussion because you will know when the time is right.
Remembering who you are during the in-between times, the bit between birth and death, ‘living’! Is important because through that you will transform your experience of life, and live in step with the natural workings of existence.
How do you become consciously aware?
You become a watcher of yourself without criticism or judgements. You observe yourself, what you think, do and say.
Next you observe your feelings to what you do, think and say. What are your corresponding emotions? Indifference, boredom, sadness, anger, irritation, desire whatever label you attach to the emotion, what is it?
After that, explore the thoughts that occupy your mind, are you constantly thinking about a past event? How often do you press that replay button? Do you think the same thoughts every day? What are your current emotions? Or are your thoughts in the future.
When you are living in the past or the future you miss what you currently are experiencing, this moment, now. This is the only place that we can physically occupy.
Understanding
As you explore your inner world, of your thoughts and feelings, it is not a time to be self indulgent and self-critical.
This requires you to be honest with your self, and the role you have played in any given event. This is the first step to forgiveness and acceptance. More often you do what you do, and say what you say out of habit, your unwillingness to let go of the past, or your fear of trying something new.
Understanding yourself is a huge step to enable change to happen. This change can only occur when YOU have decided to undergo the journey, you own your transformation. When others insist on you changing, you are reluctant to, or try to because you want to keep the peace; inside you may well feel resentment, as you don’t see the need to change, or you feel you are not good enough, or misunderstood.
However, when you do try to change because of a request to do so it becomes time sensitive, and it is not long before you revert to old behaviours.
Changing because you see the need and understand that you have work to do and choose to do so willingly, the change is more likely to be long term.
When you understand why you do what you do instead of criticising or beating yourself up. Just become aware of it, and gently ever so gently accept it. It is what it is. Forgive yourself and any other person involved. Holding on to past hurts only erodes the work you have being doing on yourself.
When you choose to become consciously aware you work in alignment with the intelligent consciousness that enables this world we live in to exist, that allows you to exist. Do not get caught up in the distraction of words that others have used to describe this consciousness. It is through the use of these words that much pain and suffering exist in this world.
It is enough to know that it exists and you are part of it. It does not require your endorsement of its existence; it is, just as you are. You are neither condemned nor rejected from this energy. You are part of this consciousness existing in this body that you claim to be you.
The body you exist in is just a house for the inner being, the consciousness that is so aligned to this intelligent life giving force. Without this energy source flowing through your body you would cease to exist in this time and space. If any of the elements (air, food or water) required to sustain this physical body is removed from you having access to them you will be forced to leave the body sooner or later.
It is these simple facts that we forget. It does not matter what labels are given to this energy source, it matters that you are aware of your connection with it. Many, including scientists believe that life does not exist after death and I agree to a certain point. Life as we know it does not exist, but, physicist have said that energy can never be destroyed; it merely transforms in to another state. So what happens to the energy that sustains this physical body? The body cannot exist without this energy flowing through it; once it stops flowing the body is useless and decomposes. It is the signals that this energy emits that doctors search for to pronounce you alive or dead.
All energy has its own particular vibration, and scientists are able to measure its frequency using their equipment. Every thing in this world vibrates: colour, stones, plants, and all living beings. When that energy is absent we say it is dead, but the energy that was housed in that entity has only left the body and transformed into something else, or reverted to it natural non physical state. Which is the consciousness that makes all this possible.
When you become consciously aware there are many things that changes in your life. In particular you change, you no longer seek others to do the changing. You become responsible for all you do. You become less critical of yourself and others. Sometimes there is less to say because you know you have not got all the answers and you listen to others because, just maybe, they might say something that enlightens you.
